I did what I had to do

Now all I can do is wait and hope for the best.

En Soiree

Thursday night was a complete fail with the exception of me and Jimmy freestyling our way through.
Friday night was a flawless performance with the exception that "she" nor any of the boys were there.

I wonder... is "she" mad at me or something? Cause "she" dont even say "hi" anymore. *Sigh* Im completely depressed. My lyrics for en soiree were meant FOR her too =(.

I hate Bees

One flew into my house and I destroyed that shit until it was in pieces. Bees scare me.

Full Moon Looks Beautiful

And I'm wondering where you are, what you're doing, and how you're feeling.

5.3.09

My head is out of it and my thoughts are all over the place. I dont even know anymore. Am I making the right choices? Am I really going for what I really want? Have you ever felt like you REALLY wanted something but you knew you couldnt have it? Yea I hate that feeling. But thats whats been constantly running through my mind. *Sigh* I just dont know anymore. My mind is in a really bad position today, though it might just be downfall, but then again Ive been like this for a while. *Sigh*

!

Sooo stressed. Everything is just coming out at me all at once. All these thoughs keep coming up, schools a bitch, I need to pay for hella shit, and now I need to take a test for Rides at Great America. I need a break.

Given up

YUP!
And a happy birthday to rachel.
Hope you have a good one.

Fuck man

My car wont start. This is bullshit. I dont even know whats the main reason its not working. I think it might actually be the starter, though last time, when my uncle checked, he said it was fine. I didnt do anyhing to it nor did I drive hella. Shit. This is hella whack. Now I can barely go anywhere. Plus I need to make $$$ to fix the dent and get my car running. Ergh. I cant even have steady grammar right now.

Bad

Day.

Last Night

I had this awesome dream. It was kinda like going back into the past yet it was all happening in our current time. It was cute though. Made me happy. But when I woke up, I just realized that it was nothing more but a dream. A recollection of thoughts being processed in my mind before I sleep. Im afraid its something that wont happen anytime soon. Guess I wont feel that way for a person ever again til that persons back to be called mine.

On another note, my knee is almost completely healed! Woot. That whole painful draining experience really helped. That whole squeezing thing he did to my leg for like 5mins was hella worth it. I think if I continue my medication, then Ill be healed completely before monday. So good for it.

I really want my Motorcycle or tattoo soon.

Lost

Again. FUCK. I thought I knew where I was heading this time but I guess not. I dont even get a "hi" nigga. What kinda BS is that? Oh well. Guess Im just not ready for this kinda stuff. On top of that, my knee is swollen and it hurts like hell right now. I guess Ill just leave it at that. Im gonna go get my knee drained now. Kinda scared. FUCK.

Today

Was pretty decent. Except for the fact that I felt sick most of the day and classes took forever to end. Other than that it was alright. After school, just chilled for like 5mins then took Rachel home, whom is sick at the moment =(. Get well soon! Then went to Alviso for a quick minute, back to quiklys with Michelle and Ben and met up with John then Tony. Now I'm about to go play ball. Update on the game later.

03.20.08

Happy Birthday Maryann.
Happy Birthday Henry.
Hope you guys had a good one.

Well heres my blog for today. Uhm. Alright day I guess. School, Milpitas, get paychecks, nap, play ball at lick mill, vinces crib, then home. Nothing really special in particular. Though I now know where I'm really going. I mean back then it was more like a crush, but now, its like, I dont know how to say it but its great. I just feel like I can make it work this time. I'm sprung. Ariiight laaate.

Hide And Seek

Today was the 2nd day of CAHSEE for the sophomores and people who failed it. It was pretty dope considering it gave everyone who passed it another late start. That was pretty awesome. Didnt do much in my classes either. Worksheet in Algera 2, 13 in video production, and talk about disney movies in photography. After school though, the BBT boys got together to film our upcoming project which is a trailer for a movie. Hide and Seek. Be on the look out for more BBT videos. Laaaaate.

Good Day

Havent really blogged in a while so I thought Id drop by today. Dont really know what to talk about since I havent done this in so long. Uhhhhmm well these past few days have been good. I think its been like this ever since we drank 40oz at tonys crib. Idk, we're making the most of these long weeks until spring break hits. Then itll be party hardy and maybe clubbing with the 18 year olds *Me, Paul, Vince, And Josh*. All in All, Ive been doing great. Hello world. Im back.